Did you know?

" The worst part about being "sick" is that people treat you differently.

Some people can't deal with "it" and walk away.
As hard as it can be- sometimes these people are the easiest to accept and deal with. At least we know where they stand.

Some people think we need their support only during crisis times.
We appreciate support during crisis spots. But believe it or not, it's the daily coping and pain that frustrates us and gets us down. That's when we could really use a friend, in person.

Some people like to talk about "it" a lot.
We don't want your pity- just your support. Ask us how we feel today- you might be surprised at the answer you get. Oh, you don't have to know the right words... we don't either.

Some people don't want to talk about "it" at all.
Bringing it up won't upset us- we live there. But it makes us feel a little more normal when it's ok to talk about sometimes. Even laughing about... really.

Some people ignore "it" altogether.
But ignoring "it" means you ignore us. It won't go away by ignoring it. We are not our disease. Please don't punish us for being sick... we need you. "

-author anonymous by request.

Accomplishments & Unrealistic Expectations!!

I am feeling today like I did not accomplish a whole lot today. What was my expectations for today I am not sure. I know that it has been 2 years since my chemotherapy ended & my expectations of where I wanted to be are very unfulfilled. Physically I thought I would be feeling better. I thought I would have more energy. I thought a lot of things but I am needing to rethink my expectations.

I am feeling like I am not accomplishing what I should be. Should be!!! Am I putting to much expectations on my self or am I being unrealistic in my expectations. What have I accomplished?

Well in the last 8 years I have needed to

` overcome a back injury from a fender bender,
` grieve the loss of my Mom, Dad & Grandfather,
` say goodbye to 4 beloved pets
` support Marilyn in saying good bye to 4 of her friends.
` go though my parents things & decide what to do with them (everything from there old house was there... everything)!
` have 2 surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation & now hormone therapy.

Ok that was a lot to swallow! In the last 8 months Mike & I decided to move which meant leaving a home that we shared with my parents. We decided to start a new chapter. It will be hopefully a good chapter but finishing off the old one is painful.

I guess today I am feeling like I would be past the pain, have more energy than I have, not be dealing with the side affects of the chemotherapy still. Some days it is hard to focus on what has been accomplished because those darn unrealistic expectations sneak up!

What have I accomplished...

~ Friendships: I have made & developed a few life long dear friendships!!!
~ We bought a new home.
~ I have a better relationship with my Hubby!!

~planted & small flower garden

It is hard to remember sometimes 'Wow, I am doing good!!'