Saturday, March 7, 2026

Time Keeps Going On.....

 1943, 1945, 1963, 1966, 1968, 1991,1992. Certain number have fond memories. Loads of excitement and possibilities. Things to come, may come, could be. Laughter, good times. There are also times that seem to be times that you may have thought you may never get through. 2003, 2006 & 2008 are years for my family and friends of ours we DID NOT think we would get through alive. Cancer diagnosis, surgery, radiation, end of life care, more cancer more deaths, more sadness. 

When my mom was diagnosed with colon cancer it was a major hit to our family. Watching her go through the surgery, chemotherapy, radiation and seeing that it was not helping and knowing we would not have much time was devastating. The thought of survival  without her was something I felt at the time was impossible. 

It has been 20 years without her. 18 without our Dad and my cancer treatment. Those years were devastating yet there were moments of beauty. My niece sitting on my Dads lap talking to the nurse, my nephew yelling at mom to wake up he had a picture he made for her. The friends of moms that came across to country to help her in at the end and support us was a miracle.  



This is one of the last pictures I have of my parents. Vicky & Terry. They are still well loved and extremely missed.

Tuesday, February 10, 2026

Letting Go Opens New Possibilities

 I have been holding onto the idea of sewing clothes. I had been gifted  a sewing machine from a friend and her mom many, many years ago. I was very excited to get it and try sewing again. I had stopped after high school. I went to craigslist and bought a used serger and got lessons along the way with my Mom. I struggled with the serger and also sewing clothes. It was not a fun hobby for me like it was with my mom. She was good at it and enjoyed it.  

Several years ago I got that serger a check up and was told it was not beginner friendly and could be hard to use, So I sold it and bought a new one but it still was not fun for me to sew. I did not like it.  I wanted to give it up yet felt guilty. I felt like I was a disappointment in some way. Go figure.

I decided to let it go and sold it to my aunt for her grandson. HE WAS SO EXCITED TO GET IT.  Letting the sewing clothing thing go to a weight off and opened up space for me to feel excited to get back to my card making. One of my crafts is making cards. They are simple cards nothing to elaborate in any way yet they five me joy. The one thing that tweaked my interest is to learn some simple watercolour painting to enhance my card making. 

It has sparked some joy that I have not felt in along time. I am looking at YouTube tutorials and found 2 books to work through to see if I can play with paints. I am a class &/or kit person so I am hoping that I will enjoy this process. So look forward to to seeing my makings with watercolour paints