My New Aura!!!

So I had some $$ set aside for something special. I usually don't buy new big ticket items; I usually save & get vintage when it comes to those kind of things. I have been looking at Majacraft wheels for awhile & when I saw this one I thought ok this could be the one.

It took me about 30 to 40 minutes to assemble with the use of my hubbies battery operated screwdriver. That was what made it easy!! There was not alcohol needed to calm nerves either. Power tools rock!! 

I am use to scotch tension on my wheel so when I had this together & trying it out I was a little awkward the bands & where would the be good for my liking.

I started with just treading & then proceeded with trying to use some fiber. It was not going to well I could not get my brain around what was doing what. So I reread the mechanics worksheet, readjusted the the tensioning like suggested & WOW did that make all the difference. I started moving the bands around to what was good for me and I am flying high on how nice this wheel is!! 

Spinning for me calms my heart. It is something I can go to when I am feeling not myself & nothing else matters. I feel like I am in another place. I can feel my heart healing & calming! Spinning came into my life at a very difficult time in my life & continued in my life though what would be the most devastating period that I would have to endure.  

So I am very thankful!!

20 Rules of Wisdom

1) God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts. 

2) Dear God, I have a problem, it's me.
3) Growing old is inevitable, growing UP is optional.
4) There is no key to happiness. The door is always open.
5) Silence is often misinterpreted, but never misquoted.
6) Do the math....count your blessings.
7) Faith is the ability to not panic.
8) Laugh every day, it's like inner jogging.
9) If you worry, pray. If you pray...don't worry.
10) As a child of God, prayer is kind of like calling home everyday.
11) Blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape.
12) The most important things in your home are the people.
13) When we get tangled up in our problems, be still;
God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot.
14) A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.
15) He who dies with the most toys is still dead.
16) We do not remember days, but moments.  Life is moving too fast - so enjoy your precious moments.
18) Nothing is real to you until you experience it; otherwise it's just hearsay.
19) It's all right to sit on your pity pot every now and again.  Just be sure to flush when you are done.
20) Surviving and living your life successfully requires courage. The goals and dreams you're seeking require courage and risk taking. Learn from the turtle, it only makes progress when it sticks out its neck.

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Saying Goodbye to Someone You Love Dearly!!

Saying goodbye to someone you love dearly is a very hard thing. I have had my share of it this past few years. You don't have a choice when that happens & it hurts greatly whether you know they are going to die or if it is sudden.

Ushie has not been feeling good the past few weeks & so I took her to see what it was.... it was devastating news. She has masses throughout her body. It has taken the life out of her. So on Monday we had set up a time to say goodbye but suddenly today she went downhill.  I took her to the Animal Emergency & we said goodbye there. They are going to cremate her for us & we will do somethings special with her ashes so we can be close!!

People who know us know that our dogs are a very big part of our lives. Actually they are in every part of our lives. So this will be another loss that will be very painful! We will miss her greatly & have another piece of our heart torn!

And what will this year bring?

What will this year bring? It is a mystery isn't it? Are you excited about what will come next, or do you care? Does it make you anxious, excited, worried, eager to see what will come next?

It all depends on your perspective. Have you had hard times so you are a bit jaded? Or maybe all is wonderful & you are looking forward to the future. We all struggle at some point in our lives with something it is how we look at it. I am finding that at times I have a real hard time with my perspective.

Fo instance, since I finished my chemotherapy & radiation I have been struggling with my self image more than ever. I have people tell me I am looking great but I see what the chemotherapy has done to me & I hurt for the person I was. I am struggling with being ok with the person I am now. I am on hormone therapy so that is affecting me & I struggle with giving myself the grace to not be what I once was & who I am becoming!

I am excited about my future. Learning not to be so hard on myself, trying to see who I am now is hard!! I am glad that I only have today. Today I can learn, learn more about me, you & the people around me!!