Fear, Anxiety & Knitting

As long as I can remember fear & anxiety has been up front & centre in my life. I felt safer in my bedroom than out in the world.  Fear & the anxiety I would say became a friend. Something that would stop me from trying things, meeting people, furthering my education.  

In the last 10 years I can look back, see what it was & understand where it came from. When it came to my knitting I was slightly ambitious. My aunt taught me the construction of socks so that I could make them well. In high school I made 2 sweaters with some colour work. After my mom died I asked my neighbour to teach me to spin yarn. Soon after Ravelry came about. It has been a really big boost in my over coming some of my fears. YouTube has also helped with tutorials on stitches.

I do find that the fear of trying something new & the anxiety that follows is still with me. I find that anger with myself pops into the mix sometimes also. I am my own worst enemy. Giving myself a pep talk doesn't come as quickly as it should. I recently worked though some anxiety to learn a new stitch for some gloves for a friend. They are not perfect but are still beautiful. 

I am slowing trying to LIVE, LOVE & KNIT ON!!